Lauren Goodger says she ‘can’t understand’ how her newborn daughter Lorena died

Lauren Goodger said she ‘can’t understand’ how she lost her newborn daughter Lorena after announcing her death on Sunday, just two days after she gave birth.

The former TOWIE star’s partner Charles Drury said Lorena’s heart would ‘forever beat inside mine’ and that he would ‘love [her] until the end of time’.

The couple were inundated with tributes from their friends and followers after announcing the heartbreaking news, including some from Lauren’s former co-stars.

Lauren, 35, confirmed the terrible news in an Instagram post, admitting the couple’s child was born ‘without complications’ prior to her death. 

Emotional: Lauren Goodger said she 'can't understand' how she lost her newborn daughter Lorena after announcing her death on Sunday, just two days after she gave birth (pictured withn her partner Charles Drury)

Emotional: Lauren Goodger said she ‘can’t understand’ how she lost her newborn daughter Lorena after announcing her death on Sunday, just two days after she gave birth (pictured withn her partner Charles Drury)

Lauren, who raises 11-month old daughter Larose with Charles, also revealed the couple are yet to say their final goodbyes to the newborn as they come to terms with her loss.

She wrote: ‘Lorena. 08.07.22. She was the most beautiful healthy baby I’ve ever seen just like her sister… words can’t describe as a mother losing your baby that I carried for all these months perfectly and gave birth too for my angel to be taken from me. 

‘There was no pregnancy or labour complications and she was fine & healthy but I am not going into detail right now just know that there was nothing wrong with her or myself she was perfect I can’t understand it she is so so beautiful Larose twin so similar.. 

‘I am broken. I am back home from hospital Me & Charlie spent as much time with our baby girl Lorena and I haven’t said my goodbye yet… 

 

Devastating: Lauren Goodger has announced the death of her newborn baby daughter, just two days after giving birth

Devastating: Lauren Goodger has announced the death of her newborn baby daughter, just two days after giving birth

‘Please can I ask photographers to respect our privacy right now as we have a lot of grieving to do and funeral organising that I just need this time & with my baby girl Larose she is my rock that’s getting me through this or I wouldn’t survive…  

 ‘I will never ever get over this but I will learn how to live everyday with Lorena in my heart she will be with me always and I will be with her again one day … My Lorena I love you so much.’ 

Lauren’s partner Charles also shared a statement paying tribute to his daughter, writing on Instagram: ‘Your little heart will forever beat inside mine.’ 

Charles wrote: ‘Lorena Drury – 8/7/22. Our beautiful baby girl so perfect in every way, 8/7/22 will always be your day. Your little heart will forever beat inside mine, I’ll love you until the end of time.

Heartbreak: Lauren confirmed the terrible news in an Instagram post, admitting the couple's child was born 'without complications' prior to her death (pictured with partner Charles and their first child Larose)

 Heartbreak: Lauren confirmed the terrible news in an Instagram post, admitting the couple’s child was born ‘without complications’ prior to her death (pictured with partner Charles and their first child Larose)

‘You remind me so much like your big sister, you’d have looked like little twins, Larose will always know how beautiful & strong you were.

‘I promise you I’ll look after your mummy & sister forever, just look over us all & keep me strong, show me signs that you’re up in heaven where you belong. I’m sorry it had to be this way but I know we’ll be together again some day.’

‘This isn’t something I thought I’d ever have to write but I’m so proud to be your daddy, I’ll see you soon baby girl but for now sleep tight.’

Moving: The former TOWIE star's partner Charles Drury said Lorena's heart would 'forever beat inside mine' and that he would 'love [her] until the end of time'

Moving: The former TOWIE star’s partner Charles Drury said Lorena’s heart would ‘forever beat inside mine’ and that he would ‘love [her] until the end of time’

Fellow TOWIE star Amy Childs wrote Lauren a message, saying: ‘Sending you love Lauren ❤️ xxxx’.

Danielle Armstrong said: ‘Oh darling heartbroken for you sending you strength and love and hope your get the respect and privacy you need to grieve xxxx’.

Lauren Goodman added: ‘Devastated for you and the family. Can’t even begin to imagine. Stay strong ❤️❤️ Love you so much ❤️❤️’.

Model Casey Batchelor said she was sending Lauren ‘so much love’ while Danielle Lloyd added that she was ‘so sorry for [her] loss’.

Dawn Ward added: ‘How sad our thoughts are with you at this difficult time.’

TOWIE star Georgia Kousoulou said: ‘I’m so so sorry Lauren , sending you so much love & strength right now ❤️’. 

Vicky Pattison wrote: ‘Awww Lauren, I’m honestly so heartbroken for you… sending you all so move love’.

Lydria Bright added: ‘Heartbreaking, sending you so much love ❤️’ while Sophie ‘Mrs Hinch’ Hinchcliffe said: ‘Beyond devastating, I am so so sorry Lauren and Charles, sending you so much love prayers and strength xxx’.

Charles also commented on Lauren’s post and wrote: ‘She will always be with us’. 

A source close to Lauren told The Sun: ‘They need time to grieve and heal.’ 

Reaction: The couple were inundated with tributes from their friends and followers after announcing the heartbreaking news, including some from Lauren's former co-stars

Reaction: The couple were inundated with tributes from their friends and followers after announcing the heartbreaking news, including some from Lauren’s former co-stars

Heartfelt: Charles also commented on Lauren's post and wrote: 'She will always be with us'

Heartfelt: Charles also commented on Lauren’s post and wrote: ‘She will always be with us’

The news comes as Lauren mourns the death of her ex-boyfriend Jake McClean who was killed after his car careened off the road in Turkey last Sunday, leaving passenger and close friend Yazmin Oukhellou seriously injured. 

Lauren broke her silence on the shock death on her Instagram page, writing: ‘R.I.P Jake, I have no words right now. My thoughts are with your family & friends.’ 

She later shared a heartbreaking series of lyrics to her Instagram Stories on Wednesday, just days after his death was confirmed. 

Tragic: Lauren featured in a pregnancy shoot as she prepared for the birth of her second child

Tragic: Lauren featured in a pregnancy shoot as she prepared for the birth of her second child

The TV personality posted a clip of Bryan Adam’s hit Everything I Do (I Do It For You), having revealed she and Jake had secretly reconciled two years before. 

Lauren previously announced that she suffered a miscarriage after trying for a baby with Jake while competing on Dancing On Ice in 2013.

The reality star shared her heartbreak on Channel 5 programme, In Therapy, explaining: ‘I was on a TV show that was quite intense. I had to try and perform when I was quite far gone. It didn’t last’.

Lauren said: ‘I’m the type of person who, when something happens, I move on. That’s how I am. It’s not something I addressed.’

Turmoil: The news comes amid a heartbreaking time for the former TOWIE star, who is mourning the death of her ex-boyfriend Jake McClean

Turmoil: The news comes amid a heartbreaking time for the former TOWIE star, who is mourning the death of her ex-boyfriend Jake McClean 

Loss: A heavily pregnant Lauren was seen with daughter Larose on Sunday, shortly after Jake's death was confirmed

Loss: A heavily pregnant Lauren was seen with daughter Larose on Sunday, shortly after Jake’s death was confirmed 

Lauren revealed she was expecting her second child in January, just days after it was revealed she had kicked partner Charles Drury out of the family home following his fling with another woman.

Speaking to OK! magazine about her pregnancy, Lauren admitted the exes were debating whether to keep the baby.

She said: ‘We weren’t very careful and Charlie was really pleased, but being honest I was really in two minds about it. I was like, “I’m just getting myself back together – I’m going back to square one. Is this fair?” You get real mum guilt]. 

Lost for words: The TV star posted a tribute to Jake on social media before going into labour with her second child

Lost for words: The TV star posted a tribute to Jake on social media before going into labour with her second child 

Tribute: The TV personality posted a clip of Bryan Adam's hit Everything I Do (I Do It For You), having revealed she and Jake had secretly reconciled two years before

Tribute: The TV personality posted a clip of Bryan Adam's hit Everything I Do (I Do It For You), having revealed she and Jake had secretly reconciled two years before

Tribute: The TV personality posted a clip of Bryan Adam’s hit Everything I Do (I Do It For You), having revealed she and Jake had secretly reconciled two years before

Injured: Jake's on/off girlfriend and Lauren's fellow former TOWIE co-star Yazmin Oukhellou was also injured during the accident, and is now 'stable' in hospital

Injured: Jake’s on/off girlfriend and Lauren’s fellow former TOWIE co-star Yazmin Oukhellou was also injured during the accident, and is now ‘stable’ in hospital

‘A lot went through my mind which is why I’ve held out a bit longer until I’ve announced it. Charlie was like, “I really want this baby.” And I said, “So do I.” I made the decision to go ahead with it and I’m so glad I did.”‘

Lauren and Charles split in November, months after their baby daughter was born, but reconciled three weeks later. They then split again in January before coming together once more in April. 

She added: ‘We had that little break [in November] and he came back and was like, “You’re not having a termination – I want this family.” 

‘I knew deep down I was going to go ahead with it, but I was scared. I’ve got to think of Larose too.’

Explaining how she found out she was expecting just eight weeks after giving birth to Larose, Lauren said: ‘I hadn’t had a period for quite a few weeks, my nipples were killing me and when I was breastfeeding the pain was unbearable. 

‘I thought, “I bet you I’m pregnant!” I did a test and it said positive.’

Charles added that his time apart from Lauren made him realise what he was missing and that going to therapy helped him mature from a ‘boy to a man.’ 

Loved-up: Lauren and Charles' whirlwind romance first came to light in October 2020, they announced their expecting their first child together just three months after going public

Loved-up: Lauren and Charles’ whirlwind romance first came to light in October 2020, they announced their expecting their first child together just three months after going public

Content: As recently as May Lauren showed off her burgeoning bump in an Instagram Story while discussing how reflexology helped her feel connected to her unborn baby

Content: As recently as May Lauren showed off her burgeoning bump in an Instagram Story while discussing how reflexology helped her feel connected to her unborn baby 

The couple’s whirlwind romance first came to light in October 2020 when Lauren teased she was dating a mystery man, who was soon to be identified as Charles. 

They announced they were expecting their first child together just three months after going public with their relationship.

However the romance was tested when their daughter was taken ill and rushed to hospital with suspected sepsis last year.

Detailing Larose’s illness, Lauren said: ‘The tests came back and they said, “She hasn’t got sepsis, she’s got a fever from an infection.” I was like, “Phew!” She was on antibiotics and a drip.’

Expecting: The former TOWIE star discussed how reflexology caused her waters to break the first time round (pictured with daughter Larose in February)

Expecting: The former TOWIE star discussed how reflexology caused her waters to break the first time round (pictured with daughter Larose in February)

Thinking ahead: Lauren also revealed her plans to give birth to her second child in the annexe of her house while her baby daughter Larose sleeps next door

Thinking ahead: Lauren also revealed her plans to give birth to her second child in the annexe of her house while her baby daughter Larose sleeps next door

Lauren went on to say how her girl was ‘more herself’ by day two and three, with a doctor telling her she needn’t ‘panic’ as it was ‘so common’ and babies ‘get ill 12 times a year’.

The couple and their daughter also all fell ill with coronavirus in December.

As recently as May Lauren showed off her burgeoning bump in an Instagram Story while discussing how reflexology helped her feel connected to her unborn baby. 

The reality star praised reflexology – the application of pressure to areas on the feet (or the hands) – and recalled how the process caused her waters to break the first time round. 

Proud mum: Lauren cradles young daughter Larose in an undated social media photo

Proud mum: Lauren cradles young daughter Larose in an undated social media photo 

‘She can tell so much from the feet about the body and its honestly made me feel so connected with the baby…’ Lauren began. 

‘When I had Larose I had @lrussellreflex do my last session to bring on labour and my waters broke 5 mins after my session!

‘Honestly it’s helped me today so much that 1 hour of relaxing and breathing and feeling connected with unborn just the best and love my sessions leading to birth.

‘It’s all so true how connected the feet are is crazy.’ 

The TV personality also opened up about her plans for a second home birth.

She told New! magazine: ‘This time I’m really worried about Larose, but hopefully she’ll be asleep.

‘But I’m going to do it [give birth] in the annexe – it’ll be like a stable. Thank God it’s double-glazed!

‘I’m going to get a smaller birthing pool, Charlie’s going to be there and my midwife and doula. The good thing about a home birth is you can have a shower and a cup of tea after.’

If you have been affected by anything in this article, please contact the UK Child Bereavement line on 0800 02 888 40 or the The Lullaby Trust on 0808 8026868.

Lauren Goodger’s romance history

Mark Wright: 1999-2011

Lauren found fame on The Only Way Is Essex while in a on-off, 12-year relationship with ex-fiancé Mark Wright.

First love: Lauren and Mark pictured in 2011

First love: Lauren and Mark pictured in 2011

Their tumultuous relationship was filled with infidelity on Mark’s part, trust issues, and tensions between Lauren and his family.

The couple cut off their engagement in May 2011, just five months after his proposal, and the presenter went on to marry actress Michelle Keegan, 33, in 2015.

Lauren later revealed she had an abortion at the age of 20 after the couple decided they weren’t ready to become parents.

She told OK! in 2011: ‘I did think I was pregnant. I’m not on the pill and haven’t been for a little while, just because of my cells, not because I was planning a baby and thank God we didn’t.

‘I was late once and I think it was the stress of what was going on. I’ve been pregnant before with his baby but I chose not to have it. I was only 20. No one knows except my close family.’ 

Jake McLean: 2012-2016

After splitting from Mark, the media personality dated Jake McLean, 33, on and off for four years – from 2012 until May 2016 – with Lauren suffering a miscarriage during their relationship

Jailbird ex: The influencer pictured with Jake in 2013

Jailbird ex: The influencer pictured with Jake in 2013

The TV star discovered she had lost the unborn child while appearing as a contestant on ITV talent show Dancing On Ice in 2013, and later admitted she has little choice but to ‘carry on.’ 

Discussing the loss on Channel 5 show In Therapy in 2017, she said:  ‘I was on a TV show that was quite intense. I had to try and perform when I was quite far gone. It didn’t last.’ 

Lauren and Jake split for the first time later that year before rekindling their romance in 2015. 

Shortly after their final split in May 2016, Lauren told OK! of her former jailbird ex: ‘I fell out of love with him. I know some people say you wake up one day and things click, but that didn’t happen to me; it was a gradual thing.

‘The relationship was quite hard. I felt like I was the one doing everything and putting the effort in. I’m at the age where I’d like to have children but Jake isn’t the sort of man I’d want to do it with.’ 

Jake was jailed for three-and-a-half years after conning his way into a mother’s house two days before Christmas in 2006, overpowering her before a masked gang ran in and raided the family home. 

JOEY MORRISION: 2016-2018

The TV star struck up a relationship with another convict, Joey Morrison, but the couple went their separate ways two years later, in 2018, despite Lauren waiting for him while he served time behind bars.

Bad boy: The TV star and convict Joey pictured in 2017

Bad boy: The TV star and convict Joey pictured in 2017

Joey, 31, was given a 16-year prison sentence for a violent offence but was released after nine years – Lauren and Joey split close to his release date.

In 2019, Lauren opened up about her two year romance with Joey, who was sentenced for drug related crimes, saying: ‘My ex was my biggest mistake. I wasted two years when I could have been dating. I wish I hadn’t waited for him to come out.’

Writing previously in new! magazine of her relationship with Joey, she said: ‘I regret giving two and a half years of my life to someone who was in jail only for him to come out and not be what I thought. 

‘I thought we were going to get a house, get married and have kids. I regret the time I’ve wasted.’ 

Charles Drury: 2020-present

In October 2020, Lauren teased she was dating a mystery man, who was soon to be identified as Charles Drury, 23. 

Inseparable: Lauren and Charles pictured last year

Inseparable: Lauren and Charles pictured last year

The amateur footballer and builder has littered his social media account with images of his girlfriend.

Sharing his thoughts on their romance, Charles previously gushed: ‘The story of you & me is my favourite because it’s happening so naturally.’ 

The couple announced their expecting their first child together, just three months after going public with their relationship.

Lauren’s partner has a history of dating older women, having previously enjoyed a brief fling with former glamour model Katie Price, 42, in 2019.

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